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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 16, 2012 17:46:48 GMT -6
No.My head was aching. This was him giving me an example of how much control he had over my body. Right now I'm trying to hold on to that last bit of sanity before my mind tip into oblivion. I don't want him any more. He was asking me of things that would risk the lives of my family... as well as my own... let alone were completely morbid and illegal. Just to list one... he wanted to take up my grandfathers offer of being in the mob... "But you must."No, I don't. My family doesn't want me to.... I don't want to. It benefits no one. "On the contrary. You're grandfather wants you to. Don't you want a father figure? Who am I kidding... you do... So, Aiden, he is the closest you will get. Now... It will benefit you and your family. They just can't see the blessing in disguise. With acquired skill you can protect them... you will have a glorious income to make sure they never fall into the hands of poverty..." My answer still stands, Belial."You're going to regret that decision. You and I both no you're wrapped around my finger. I just wanted to allow you free will... guess I'm going to have to give you one last ultimatum...." In his own fucked up way he believes that changing my opinion and giving me ultimatum is some form of free will... all he is doing is asking me to pick my poison. No freedom at all. "And here she comes."Hearing my mother's footsteps was enough to make the hair on my neck prickle... and that was the last sensation I was conscious about before I was no longer Aiden. Hanging up the phone Mischa would let out a small laugh of disbelief as the tears streamed down her face. There was no way to describe what she was feeling right now... Having lost your child to death at such a young age is one of the most horrible experience one should not have to go through... But having that only to find out she was alive.... She just didn't know how she felt. She would get up and run towards Aiden's room. "Aiden!" she reached for his door not bothering to knock.... she was sure he would forgive her for barging in once he found out the news his twin was alive. Once she was inside she didn't see him...though he was on her like a fat kid on cake. She thought he was kidding...though startled a bit he had jumped out from behind her... though his grip was getting tighter and tighter around her neck. He was holding her in a choke hold and a gun was now pressed to her temple. "You will kept alive. But if I do not get my way... I will shoot a bullet through your fucking skull.... Though I will make sure I do it in front of Kevala and Kazumi... just to demonstrate what their fate lies ahead." Aiden didn't need the threat to sound as dangerous as he did.... His voice was a low husk and it alone was enough to make the blood drain from her face. She opened her mouth to speak...to calm him down...or just to ask him what he was doing and why he was doing it, but her airways were trapped and she could sleep creeping up on her. He began walking away from the door... and now they stood before a mirror... she could see the distress on her own voice.... new tears had already started drenching her face... Though that wasn't what she was focused on. Her stomach turned as she saw the black of his pupil.... they seemed to be dilated to the point he only had a thin ring of his iris.... which was not the colour he was born with. They were silver... so barely noticeable at first given the size of his iris... but it was obvious what was going on. "Don't look for me." his threatening tone echoed in her ear as her eyes began to flutter shut before she fell limp in his grip. A loud crash woke me from the questionable state I was in. My palms were sweaty and not to mention my right hand was growing sore from gripping something so hard. I look down to see what I'm holding and it was a gun. Worry struck as I last remembered Belial's threat and if I was correct... Mischa was coming down the hall. In my peripherals caught site of a body on the floor. My heart sank and it wasn't long before the tears managed to fall from my eyes before I even got a chance to look up at the mess I have created. I dropped the weapon as I fell to my knees... My hand craddled the back of my mother's head. I had yet to find any blood... but I wasn't looking I just stared as I cried. Though not long before I stood... Not on my own accord. Finding myself packing my clothes the gun I dropped to the floor. "You didn't kill her... she's just unconscious....."What did you make me do?"Okay. You asked."I woke up in a cab. My bag was sitting on my lap as I looked around in panic. Tears stained my cheeks as I recalled the dream I had just woken from. I saw my face.... I saw her face as I pressed the gun to her head... I played back what I said to her. Why would you do this? She was innocent.... and Kazumi is dead..."She isn't"What? "Kazumi isn't dead. The whole... she is alive... and now she is back with Kevala... all the more reason you should pay the cab driver... and enter that building across the street."I was in shock.... How could he not tell me she was alive? More and more it was obvious he was a monster. I knew before.... The first clue was his name. It was a sorry name for someone... seeing as how it was another familiar with for the devil. Before though..he was a lot more behind closed doors... it would appear he was growing bored. I approached the door and knocked and it wasn't long before it opened... Behind as such... was my grandfather... a large smile on his face. "I'm glad you called!" Called? I guess I did.... Mischa woke up on the floor... Her head was aching. As soon as she gained her sensibility back she remembered what had happened. "Oh God..." her mouth dropped open as her eyes clenched tight. She sat up and hugged her knees to her chest as her body jerked with every silent sob that escaped her lungs. Her eyes opened to see herself in the reflection of the mirror... Her neck was bruised.... but behind her in said reflection was an opened closet... emptied of all the clothes that had been hanging there. I could have stopped him...Her self defence was advanced and more so than his... but she wouldn't be able to render her baby boy... but now he was gone... she didn't know where...and she wasn't allowed to look..... <><><><><><><> About three months later Mischa told Kevala she was coming home. She had told Kevala months prior about their missing son. How it was taking a toll on them... especially Kevala... she had lost Zeke... she had lost Kazumi...and now she lost Aiden. Mischa was waiting in airport. Her mind still held on to what had happened... she played it back and forth.... trying to pin point what had happened and rehearsed in her head what she could have done to prevent... or where she could have found him... she was warned not to look... but those three months she still tried. There was nothing....
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Post by Kevala Katashi on May 16, 2012 18:05:01 GMT -6
She had mixed emotions. Sure, she was over excited to see her wife, for Kev it had been near torture being away from her, but at the same time, she knew what came with her arrival home. The fact that both her son's were gone, and that they now had to tell their daughter, who was already on some very unsteady ground, about what had happened to her twin. Just the thought of it made her stomach turn, and for a woman who did not normally experience emotions like other people, that was saying something.
Yet, here she was, at the airport, sitting in the SUV and staring at her hands as they gripped and ungripped the steering wheel. When Mischa had left, that had been hard. She had just lost her daughter, and though she had been unsure that Kaz was really dead, she had not dared to say anything to give Aiden or Mischa hope, for fear she was wrong. Why cause them that pain twice? None the less, Mischa was the only thing that kept Kevala pretty much centered and focused. So her leaving, and taking Aiden with her, had nearly undone everything that Kevala had worked so hard to build for herself, mostly her sanity. Sure, she had not gone out, gotten high and fucked some random stranger, a fact she was proud of herself for by the way....But she had resorted back to her other hobbies...Their last house a broken mess filled with blood from her little play date with one of their security guards. Well, before it had "accidentally" been burned to the ground and her and Kaz had moved to the opposite end of the city.
Now, well now Mischa was back, and though Kev honestly could not be happier, there was that looming sense that things were about to get much worse before they got better. Just recently she had caught a glimpse of the other half of Kaz, that part that had been hiding from her for months now. For some reason, it didn't like it when Kevala was around, and she had her suspicions as to why. As for Mischa, well Kev hadn't had a chance to tell her yet....
A little groan as her head banged into the steering wheel a few times. Carmine had offered to come, but that had been more of an offhanded gesture than anything....he knew this was not his place and even with his closeness to Kevala, the likelihood of him getting out of it unscathed was scarce. So no, she had told him to stay home.
Eventually, once she had worked away that sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach, she would draw in a deep breath and do what she was best at, suck it up, and pretend like the world was a happy and normal place. Not that she could ever really fool Mischa, but she would try none the less. Climbing from the SUV, dressed in her usual jeans, tank top and black cuffs around her wrists, her fingers nervously fidgeted with the wedding ring about her finger once she had pocketed her keys.
Making her way into the airport, it took her all of five seconds to find where her wife was, and about another two seconds to have the other woman wrapped up in her arms and her face buried snuggley against her neck, a little, almost impossible to hear, whimper released as she drew in that scent she had craved so very badly, the pillows on Mischa's side of the bed having begun to smell more and more like herself than the other woman. "Gods I have missed you..."
Pretty much all she could say, as she had no real intent of peeling herself away from her spouse as of yet, a soft little nuzzle into her neck before her lips would softly, and affectionately, brush against her flesh. Fuck! She had not realized until now how much she had missed that. One hand moving to snake fingers through those dark locks, toying with them as she so often did, and the other arm staying firmly wrapped about her waist.
Luckily they were nowhere near the school, cause probably nobody would have actually believed that it was Kevala the one acting like the biggest fucking baby in the world right now, but yeah....as of this moment the rest of the world could fuck off.
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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 16, 2012 22:36:04 GMT -6
Mischa was both excited and scared to meet back up with Kevala and Kazumi. Excited because she missed them (and its been a long time since Mischa had tail) and worry because well... Aiden hadn't returned home. She was pacing back and forth...her eyes glued to the ground so it was too late to realize someone had their arms around around her.
The smell.... her delicate form...the way her lips pressed to her neck... it was of course extremely obvious who had ambushed her. Mischa pressed her lips to the side of her head as she got a big gust of Kevala's scent as her face was buried in her hair.
"Mmmm.... Missed you more." her arms were wrapped around her tight..pulling her in as close as possible. This hug just felt amazing right now... Mischa fucking needed it that's for sure... She had been alone for 3 months.. wondering around Venice aimlessly trying to find someone who might know where Aiden was... They moved camp so she didn't know where the guys were hiding...and her father wasn't even in contact with her. She was quite literately alone. "Venice may have been home for me for many years as well as my place of birth... but.... Just doesn't feel the same without you guys...as if you guys belonged there..." Mischa sniffed as tears of joy for being united with her wife came forth...though also the hidden sadness of what was going on. "Things are just a little fucked up right now... I'm putting my very little trust into my father in keeping Aiden safe... He may be a self righteous ass hole... but I managed to stay alive all the years I was in the mafia..."
They hadn't moved from the spot they were in.... after all they hadn't seen each other in forever...just felt nice to slow the world down a little with a small hug. "I'm assuming Kazumi still doesn't know of my return....or the fact Aiden is no longer with us...?"
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Post by Kevala Katashi on May 16, 2012 22:46:16 GMT -6
This would usually be the point where she pulled back, brushed her hand against that cheek she knew so well, or kissed her wife with every bit of passion she could muster....but it had been far too long and for Kevala, who had become almost dependent upon Mischa for any form of stability and happiness, was perhaps a bit too clingy.
She felt that kiss to the side of her head and would shiver slightly, completely content in not releasing the other woman until she quite literally had to.....Though despite her current situation of being a giant freaking baby, she listened intently to everything that Mischa said. That slight alteration in her tone, knowing that there were tears lurking nearby, it both broke her heart and made her way to murder anyone who dared to upset Mischa...Of course the problem was it was their son that was the problem....though Kev was more than willing to thrust all the blame on Mischa's father and cut the mans head off with a butter knife if she had to.
But that was another matter entirely. A soft nuzzle once more given, drawing in a rather deep breath of that luscious scent and then flinching slightly at the question which was posed. Damnit....That was her cue to pull back...if only a fraction of an inch to allow her icy hues to meet with Mischa's, a look, that was as close to nervousness as Kevala could get, crossing her gaze. "No...she doesn't know anything....But...umm..."
She hesitated...Not typical for her, but then Kevala wasn't her usual bitchy self with Mischa, that just didn't work, and usually didn't end well....even if it eventually led to sex...But whatever. "Remember Sasha?" Yes, that was the best way to break the news she thought. Perhaps a bit blunt, but Kev really didn't understand the concept of being blunt of subtle or whatever....It was nice, better than saying "Oh yeah, her brains fucked." Which....had it been anyone else, would have been the likely response. "She...She doesn't know....and neither part of her knows I know...Won't come out around me...I don't know how she is going to take this new about Aiden...It was bad enough when Ezekial left.." Her turn to tear up a bit, that lower lip jutting out slightly....trembling just a bit...and then her face quickly burying itself back against Mischa's neck as she whimpered. Yeah, Kev hadn't taken any of this too well....And now, with her wife here, it really showed.
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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 22, 2012 21:41:39 GMT -6
Well fuck. The girl didn't know about her missing brother. She will probably see Mischa and get excited to be reunited with him only to be denied such a thing. It was heartbreaking really. Mischa looked into her eyes..those addictive eyes that would not fail to draw Mischa in. She could see the sadness..the worry... that and she could tell when Kevala was pouting 'cause she just acted like a big suck. Then... Sasha was brought up.
Shit just keeps getting worse for them.
Mischa was gonna have to tell her about Aiden...and what possibly plagued his mind... but she will save it for a more calm of a moment... no sense in kicking the woman as she is down.
"Come... lets go home..." She would pry the girl away from her and press a quick kiss to her lips...though she returned again for a bit of a longer kiss... a quick kiss didn't suffice... Once she parted she would wrap an arm around Kevala's shoulders holding her close to her side as her other hand dragged the luggage.
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They were now entering the home... The home Mischa had not left behind. It would seem Kevala up and packed all their stuff and moved somewhat out of town. Mischa would set the luggage down off to the side near the door as her eyes scanned the area as she twisted her lips in a "not bad" manner. "Cute place."
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Post by Kevala Katashi on May 22, 2012 22:12:52 GMT -6
First of all, Kev was paranoid on her best day, so she tended to pay attention to things much more closely than most. Secondly, she had been married to Mischa for many years now, and well....she knew her better than she knew herself sometimes. So to say that she didn't notice that there was something that the other woman was not saying, would have been a lie. But to be honest, Kevala wasn't sure she could handle one more bad thing.
It was taking everything she had to maintain what shred of sanity the past 15 years of marriage had created. Already she had slipped, had killed again....several times. But that was something she would have to wait and tell Mischa until they ha dealt with the whole issue of Kazumi and informing her about her twin's disappearance.
Sure, Kev didn't understand the whole reason behind priorities when it came to stuff like this, but Mischa had pretty much taught her that some things came before others when it came to family....and so naturally, Kevala put herself last on that list of things.
Feeling herself pried away, she would glance toward Mischa once more, trying not to be as big a baby as she had been...There would be plenty of time for that later when she was cuddling up to her wife in bed like there was no fucking tomorrow. "Alright..." Forcing a smile onto her lips before she felt that first quick kiss pressed against them. Dear fucking gods did Mischa taste good..She had missed that way too damn much.
But she would try to restrain herself, if for no other reason than the whole "priorities" thing that she had learned from Mischa....But then came the second kiss, and after six months of no sex....at all....Kev was in a very volatile state. A little growl escaping at the back of her throat as her hand slid within the other woman's dark locks, gripping rather tightly at the back of her head and pulling her into that kiss all the more, deepening it with a deep seated, feral hunger and possessiveness that the woman would know all too well.
Only when Kev had finally managed to steal every bit of her wife's breath from her lungs, would she pull back, a firm little nip to Mischa's lower lip, just enough to nick it and to cause the tiniest drop of blood to surface. Slowly allowing her tongue to glide across the tiny mark, choking back a moan at the faintest taste of that oh so familiar blood.
Already her eyes were that deep crimson shade, the black swirling within them. No anger here, but lust....desire...need...all those things were perfectly clear. As was the fact that her demon was just as happy to see Mischa as Kev herself...both of them having grown to love the woman more than life itself.
"Mine.." Growling the words against her lips before she would tear herself away before she ended up just taking the woman right there at the airport....Quickly stamping down her demon, promises of allowing it to play with Mischa later...and being tugged in close to the other woman, she would make her way out of the airport and back home.
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As they entered the house, she would glance around at the home and then back at Mischa, a little shrug given as she sighed. "I just wanted something away from all the trouble that was going on. Especially with Kaz's new problem and everything. I know its not great, but you weren't here and well..." She shrugged, looking away as she hesitated on what to say here. "....Well I tried but its just not home without you...so...I haven't really decorated or anything...."
She would then slip up behind Mischa, rising up just enough so that she could brush back those dark locks from the side of Mischa's neck, exposing that delicate flesh to her hungry lips...a few soft kisses, trailing upward to just below her ear before she would give a firm bite to the woman's neck and then purr softly. "If you do not like it, we can go look for something new once you have settled. You know that I have always said the house is yours to choose and do what you wish with." Yes, Kevala had never once argued about where Mischa chose for them to live. More than happy to pick up and move and buy the woman any house her heart desired. But then, Kev did tend to spoil Mischa as much as she was allowed to.
Wrapping her arms about the other woman's waist, she would trail her lips upward to her ear, softly nibbling upon it as one hand grew dangerously close to sliding down the front of Mischa's pants....But she refrained. Pulling herself back and grabbing up the bags as she shuddered with a wave of sexual frustration that once more washed through her. "I will go ahead and put these in the room." Her tone again back to normal....If anything, it was more than obvious that Kev and her demon were both on edge...Not that it took a genius to figure out why.
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Post by Kazumi O'Connor on May 22, 2012 22:28:43 GMT -6
Kaz was upstairs in her room, though she had the door open. With it being daylight outside, she had opted to try and keep the door open in case she had to try and escape. She wasn't supposed to be home today, but then, her Mother usually didn't say anything lately when Kaz skipped school.
Though it was odd that Kevala had not called her to see why she wasn't at the school today. Usually she at least did that, to make sure Kaz was okay. But whatever...Kaz was, as usual, sitting alone in the pitch black darkness of her room, her jacket discarded off to the side and wearing a pair of sweat and a t-shirt....another one of Aiden's that had been in her closet before all the bad stuff had happened.
It was then, as she shifted to lay down on the bed, that she heard the front door downstairs opening. It wasn't hard, seeing as how Kaz didn't listen to music anymore, nor did she watch TV or anything of the sort...leaving the house dead silent for the most part.
Not thinking anything of it, and figuring it was just Momma Kev coming home to check on her, she would finish laying down, her head hitting the pillow and a light sigh escaping her.
"Cute place..."[/color]
That familiar voice making its way up the stairs and instantly registering in Kaz's mind. She had not seen Momma Mischa since before her "death" and so naturally, that was a voice that would stand out rather plainly in her mind.
Quickly she rolled off the bed, grabbing her jacket and pulling it on, the hood pulled up seeing as how there would be light downstairs. But once she had that done, she bolted out the door as fast as she could and down the stairs. Maybe she was hearing stuff, but usually it was Aiden or Ezekial's voice her mind created...Not her Momma's.
Reaching the middle of the stairs, those blue eyes fell upon the figure of her Mother and tears instantly filled her eyes. "Momma!" Possibly the most excited Kazumi had been in months, even more so than when she had first seen Kevala again. Sure, she had been happy and cried and hugged her Mother, but Mischa was the one that had always been there while they were growing up....and it had been much longer since she had seen her.
Shooting down the stairs, she threw her arms around the woman's waist and buried her face into her chest, a few soft little whimpers as she started to cry, clinging to her Mom for dear life. Where she just couldn't bring herself to be a baby with Kevala, she could and would do so with Mischa...Turning back into that little four year old girl who would always cry to Mischa when she got hurt and Aiden wasn't around. Trying her very best to hide against her Momma where ultimately she knew it was safe.....because, despite how much she usually distanced herself from both women, deep down, she still was very much their little girl and very much looked to them for security.....[/font]
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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 23, 2012 19:34:40 GMT -6
Mischa's breath slowed in pace as she felt Kevala come up from behind her. It was hard to focus on the topic at hand with Kevala doing what she was doing. Kevala wasn't the only one sexually frustrated... unfortunately Mischa didn't have a crutch to fall back on like Kevala did with murder.......... maybe that's a good thing.
"Um.. Yeah.. No.. This...This is good..."
In other words; "Yeah this place will do just fine now let's stop talking about it."
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Kevala teased her... teased the fuck out of her. SUCH A TEASE.
They had only so much time before Kazumi would return from school and that's when shit would hit the fan... hard to have sexy time when shit is everywhere from the fan...
Kevala headed up stairs and Mischa would shake her head to herself as she turned to hang up her jacket. "Right behi-" when she turned to chaseKev up the stairs she met a different pair of eyes.... though it wasn't long before those were gone and buried in her chest as the girl embraced Mischa... in a manner Mischa wasn't used to. It was a surprise 'cause the girl never opened up to her mothers... That and Mischa thought she was at school... but that was the least shocking thing....
Mischa would wrap her arms around her head cradling it gently while brushing some of her hair. Fuck yes Mischa was crying... Kazumi was crying and hugging her... it was a time to be upset... especially seeing as how Kevala ran for the hills so it was obvious who was gonna have to break the news.
"Oh Kazumi... I missed you so much. I'm so happy...so so so so happy you're alive... so so so so happy..."
Did I mention she was happy?
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Post by Kazumi O'Connor on May 23, 2012 19:58:34 GMT -6
Kazumi clung to her Mother as tightly as she could without crushing the woman, tears running down her cheeks and quickly being soaked into the front of the woman's shirt, though she didn't care. As she felt that hand brushing through her hair, she would whimper softly and continue to keep her face buried against her chest, not wanting to let go as she sniffled and gave a small, almost happy little laugh at how good it felt to have her Mom there again. "I missed you so much Momma. I am s...so sorry that I didn...didn't talk to you all...t..those times before when you tried to....I p..promise I wi..will be better now...I promise Momma." Of course referring to the entire time she was growing up when she had not spoken to either of her Mothers when they tried to talk to her.
She felt bad about it now, having thought she would never see them again, that had been all she could think about. Especially Mischa. The woman had tried so hard, and yet Kaz had always just pushed her away.
Pulling back, she would look up to her, tears streaking down from those amethyst eyes as she felt her lower lip quiver softly. Whatever dam had been in place, holding back all the emotions and the thoughts of what had happened now seemed to break. "H..H..He did really bad things to me Mommy..." Yes, mommy....Kaz was being a baby right now, but then, she had more of a right to do so than Kev really, seeing as how she was one of Mischa's "babies" so to speak.
"H...He would make me watch all these pictures...and he...he would make me take these drugs...and I couldn't move...an..and then would shock my brain with this thing...over and over...." She whimpered once more and then buried her face against Mischa again...tears falling so much harder now. "He made me...h..have s..sex with him Mommy....I didn't want to...but he would...he would cut me...and hit me...and make me.." She tried to stop, but the words just kept coming. Things she had been holding back, things she had been scared to say.
"I couldn't leave that r...room...It was so..so dark and cold Mommy....I kept crying for you and Momma Kev but nobody ever came....I was so scared..." She wanted to say more, but at this point her breath was catching in her throat and she couldn't....so she just hugged Mischa tighter and would bury her face more into her, wanting her to make it better, wanting her to make it okay. Cause, after all, that was what Moms did right? They made everything better....Just like when they were little and would get hurt...Mischa was always there to make it go away....Even if Kaz had never shown it, she had come to depend on that, to need it when she got hurt....
As for Kev, she had not disappeared, she was at the top of the stairs, clearly in view, but she was staying silent, her arms folded over her chest just listening. This was Mischa's moment with their daughter, Kev had been able to spend the last couple months with her...She knew this was important, so for now, she would just stay out of it.
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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 23, 2012 23:10:01 GMT -6
Mischa would shush the girl in a comforting manner. Though it wasn't long before Kazumi begun spilling out confessions.... all of it was a lot.... a lot to take in. Mischa held Kazumi tighter as she rested her chin on the top of her head. She stopped breathing as she listened while the tears soaked her cheeks. The sudden need to vomit was almost too over powering... only thing stopping her from throwing up expensive airport junk was the fact she was holding on to her baby girl who obviously gone through a lot.... not only was she trying to be there for Kazumi, but she was doing it for herself... it was like one of those situations where you need each other to feel better...and to have Kaz in her arms instead of somewhere unknown and presumably dead was clearly what she wanted at this moment.
She was scared... scared for her daughter... Her mother went through the same thing and it messed with her... there is no healing those kinds of wounds.
Mischa's eyes darted up the stares to find Kev with her arms crossed. She looked at her wife with pain in her expression and in a matter of questioning as to why hadn't Kevala told her any of this.... yet again she had yet to tell Kevala the full detail of Aiden's mishap...so they were both at fault she supposed.....
"It won't happen again, sweetie..." It was one of those moments where if she knew who did this... she would kill them... but of course make them beg for death first. "Trust me...no one will steal you away from me again." they can... but the price they pay would be a bullet in the head....
So now she was comforting Kazumi.... comforting herself.... it would be a bad time to bring up Aiden... maybe she will wait 'til she was less upset or if she were to bring it up... Hells yea she was going to blame her father for this.
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Post by Kazumi O'Connor on May 23, 2012 23:32:14 GMT -6
Kazumi would nod slightly her Mother's words, her little body trembling as she held to the woman and continued to cry rather heavily. It felt so good to have her Mother there, and all those years of pushing the woman away when all she had wanted was to be close to Kaz, well that brought a wave of guilt over the young girl like she had never felt before. "I love you Momma..So...So much.." Still unable to help her stuttering problem that she had developed as a result of all this.
Yet for the first time, she wasn't embarrassed by it. Despite how she might have felt before, she realized now that no matter what, her Momma would love her just as much as she always had. She just wished she had realized that before all this had happened.
Pulling back, those big, innocent looking eyes would look up at her Mother, tears streaking down her pale little cheeks as she sniffled and tried to calm herself down. "M..M...Maybe wh..when you are settled in....we c..could talk more?" There was still so much that she wanted to tell her Mom, but she also was still that same, very considerate, and very loving little girl who understood that Mischa had just gotten in from a long flight and was likely very tired. Kaz didn't want to be a bother....part of the reason she had always kept such a distance from both her Moms.
"M..Maybe we c...could st..stay up and...and have snacks and...and look at co..comics and stuff?" She just wanted to spend time with her Mom...so so badly. But she didn't want to watch tv or anything even remotely related to that. True, Kaz had never volunteered to read comics with her mom, or even hang out with her for that matter, but she was dead serious now. For the first time in her life brave enough to ask if they could just...hang out. The whole time she was growing up, she had always been too scared to ask Mischa to play with her, and had depended on Aiden to do that for her.
Of course, that was when the thought of Aiden crossed her mind. But she didn't ask, because, well she just assumed he would be in later, perhaps caught a later flight. Her mind not really connecting the dots enough to ask of his where-a-bouts....yet. Instead, she was trying her hardest to make up for being such a bad daughter all these years.
If Mischa agreed, or even if she shot her request down...Kazumi would move to press a kiss to her Mother's cheek before once more giving her a big hug, not wanting to go, but knowing that right now she was probably in the way..."I love you Momma.." Just not sure she could ever say that enough. But eventually, she would pull herself away and move back toward the stairs, stopping as she passed Kevala and lowering her eyes a bit. She felt bad....for opening up to her other mom and not Kevala...yet she would hesitantly reach out and wrap her arms around the woman, giving her a hug now as well. "I..I am sorry Momma...I...I love you." Pulling away rather quickly and running back up to her room to shut and lock the door. She knew the two had a lot of catching up to do, and honestly she didn't want to be in the way.
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Post by Kevala Katashi on May 23, 2012 23:43:47 GMT -6
She stood there, and she listened, and as she did the anger inside her began to increase. She had heard bits and pieces from Kaz, and she had guessed on others, but she had not known all of the details, as would show on her face when Mischa turned to look at her. A little shake of her head given, the crimson starting to bleed into her eyes. No, she had not known or she would have told Mischa, at least some of it.
Seeing Kaz like that with Mischa, it hurt but at the same time it made her happy. Hurt that her daughter did not feel that way for her, but happy that she at least was able to show Mischa how much she cared now. The entire time that the twins were growing up, it had been in the back of their minds that Kazumi had not really wanted anything to do with them...Possibly more on Mischa's mind than Kev's. She supposed this little show of affection was going to do wonders for Mischa.
Then, when Kazumi finally pulled back, offering to hang out with Mischa later, Kev would arch her brow slightly. The girl had never been one to ask for such things, and though she had no objections on the matter, it was still a bit shocking to say the least.
A few moments later Kaz would make her way back up the stairs, stopping to apologize to Kev and even give her a hug as well, which of course was returned fully. "I love you too baby...And its alright. No need to apologize." Watching as she pulled away and headed up to her room, hearing the door shut and lock.
Only then would Kev make her way down the stairs, not even needing to be told, her arms would wrap around Mischa and pull her in tightly against her small frame. For Kev, the thoughts and images of what had been done to their daughter angered her, hurt her in some ways, but she could get by...She had lived through something similar, and she had also had months to adjust to knowing this about Kaz...at least some of it....But Mischa, well that was a different story, and she could see in her wife's eyes how hurt and sickened she was by all this.
"Its alright...I will find them..I promise." There was no point in even trying to talk her out of it. She was going to track down whoever took part in this and she would have their heads...literally. Her hand moving to softly brush through the other woman's hair, she would press her lips to her forehead, continuing to hold her firmly as she closed her eyes and let out a soft sigh. "Come on baby...Lets go lay down in bed and talk about all this...There are some things I need to tell you before we can talk to her about Aiden."
Her hands falling to Mischa's cheeks and lifting her head so that she could press her lips firmly against her wife's...the taste of her kiss, sending shivers down her spine, though she did not deepen it...No, instead she would pull back and softly brush away the tears that still lingered on her face.
This was going to get worse before it got better, partly why she wanted Mischa to lay down. Though she was sure when she told her what she had to tell her, she was going to throw up....hell, as twisted as Kevala was, she had almost thrown up when she found out. Assuming that Mischa agreed, Kev would take her hand and slowly pull her along toward the bedroom...Her mind racing with thoughts of what they had to talk about, her heart aching because of the fact that her wife was in pain and there was nothing she could do to make it better right now. Hell, that alone killed her.
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Post by Mischa Badoer on May 28, 2012 23:41:32 GMT -6
"I love you too, Kaz." it worried her Kazumi was acting in such a nature. It was nice.. but the fact she was a different person... how she was beaten and broken to the point she now feared the loss of her family. Then.... Kazumi would ask to hang out. Mischa would pause being shocked at the invitation...not that she didn't want to if anything her dream had come true... but yeah... she was still not used to the affection coming from their daughter.
"Yes we can, sweetheart... I would love that... I would love that a lot actually..." Mischa would kiss her on the forehead before she would leave.
Kevala was then down the stairs and ready to comfort her. Man this was all too much. Mischa would just return the kiss and nod to Kevala's suggestion in going to lay down. It was a long trip... shit hit the fan... she needed to lay down and have the best cuddle session with her wife whom she hadn't seen in ages. Mischa had a hard time sleeping as of late given the events that happened with Kazumi and Aiden...also the fact she didn't have her wife in the bed by her side.
She would turn Kevala in the direction of the stairs with her hands on her hip and her head hanging on her shoulder. The both of them would teeter back and forth until they made it to the bedroom. Mischa then would lay Kevala down on her stomach and she would follow resting her cheek in between her shoulder blades and had one arm hooped over her lower back.
"I'm so glad I have you through this all... Don't know what I would do if you weren't mine..." of course the whole time she was in Venice she was worried Kevala would be swept off her feet by some romantic...or just some guy would wanted sex. Kevala had a passed...may it be 14 years ago... but Mischa feared just about anything. One of her biggest nightmares is...well... its any possibility that could eventually leading to the loss of her wife.... "It was torture being so far away from you for such a long period of time."
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Post by Kevala Katashi on May 29, 2012 0:19:57 GMT -6
Kevala was all too willing to make her way to the bedroom with her wife. To say that she had missed her would have been the understatement of the century. Kevala may have been known for her rather.....promiscuous ways in the past....(and that was putting it lightly) but believe it or not, things did change....Even Kevala. Sure, it may not have showed much on the outside, but inside she was not the same person she had been all those years ago.
Laying down on the bed, she would allow Mischa to lay her down on her stomach, feeling that all too familiar weight settle in atop her and closing her eyes as a sigh of contentment and relief escaped her. "I am glad that I have you too baby....I would have lost my mind ages ago if not for you..." She would purr the words softly toward her wife, a little smile curling upon her lips as she nuzzled her head into the bed.
She was more than aware of what Mischa had possibly worried about, leaving her all alone for those six months....and to be honest, when Mischa had first gotten on that plane, it had been a big concern on Kev's mind as well. She had never been one to trust herself all that much...but the fact that she had behaved...hell the fact that she had down and out refused the advances of men all together made her oh so proud of herself. Perhaps more proud than it should have...but yeah...."I was so lonely baby....I just haven't been the same without you here. I slept on the couch most of the time...Well, on the rare occasion that I actually slept." No, she didn't have to elaborate on that point. Mischa knew better than anyone why Kevala didn't sleep. Though over the past fourteen years it had gotten significantly better. Sure, she still had her night terrors every now and then..but ultimately she did manage to sleep every night. Perhaps not as much as a normal person...but sleep none the less.
Yet without Mischa there...sleep had been near impossible to come by. "But...I was good...the whole time.." Speaking almost sheepishly at first. Yes, she was proud of herself, but it was still a touchy subject to bring up with her wife. "Threatened to cut a guys dick off if he came near me with it again..." She gave an almost innocent little giggle...And had it been anyone BUT Kev it might have been easy to think that it had just been talk. But no....Mischa would know that if Kev had said she was going to cut some guys dick off...she had meant it. She also knew that if Kev had cheated, she wouldn't lie about it. Had to give her credit for that much at least....she had never lied about her affairs in the past...she had just hidden them REALLY well for the most part. "I just couldn't bare the thought of anyone but you touching me...." A little nod...speaking the Gods honest truth there. The thought had made her stomach crawl. No....she had changed and now...the idea of being with anyone but the woman currently laying upon her was ....well.....impossible.
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Post by Mischa Badoer on Jun 10, 2012 23:04:34 GMT -6
Mischa would lie there quiet as Kevala spoke. Just to hear her voice in person rather than over the phone was comforting. She closed her eyes and let her voice cradle her mind to a relaxing state.
Though as Kevala boasted of her success in staying loyal, Mischa couldn't help but smile. She let out a small breath that was supposed to be a laugh... best she could do at a time like this..her being tired and shit going down in their family and all.
"Oh baby, you really know what to say." she would reach up and brush the hair clear of Kev's hair. Mischa would lean in and give a little kiss before whispering in her ear.
"Wish I could say the same." she would pull back to avoid any flailing palms of furry. Her lips would purse as if she were about to whistle... only cause she was trying to hold in a smile. Yeah she was just joking around of course! Mischa wouldn't dream of cheating on her wife.
She just wanted to see the reaction....
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