Freedom is Sweet (Taylor)

[Kazumi O'Connor]

It was getting dark out, the sun having fallen back behind the horizon just a half hour ago. Which was good. Nyx liked the dark much more than she liked the light, an after affect of that torture she had endured at the hands of that "Earth" bastard that had kidnapped her and decided to use her as his own personal play thing for three months.

A little growl rolling past her lips at the thought as she paced the living room floor with Ruth in her arms, softly bouncing the baby up and down just a bit to try and sooth her. To be honest she didn't know what was wrong with her, but ever since the day that Patrick had disappeared she had been having uncontrollable fits of crying and what Nyx believed to be pain.

It was so hard to tell with a baby who was only a month old, but she was sure it was. She felt it. She just didn't know where it was coming from. A little sigh as dark eyes looked down at the now sleeping infant, watching as she sucked on her little fist randomly and smiling just a bit.

Nyx didn't give a damn about anything in this world, except this child. Sure, she had an attachment to the Father, but did she love him like her other half did? No, not at all. She just thought of him as belonging to her, the feral side of her not able to feel love, just the baser instinctual emotions...So yes, she was pissed somebody would steal from her, but she didn't have to suffer the same tortured emotions that Kazumi had been going through ever since she found out.

In a way, that was good...Hell it was marvelous really. She didn't have all those emotions to weigh her down. She could be free, she could be...happy-ish...Hell, she could even kill more efficiently now...as she had proven before coming home today.

Sure, the blond girl had given her blood and it had helped, but she had needed more...So she had made a little stop on the way home. Some cheerleader that had ducked out of school early. The little brunette bitch didnt even see it coming and to be honest, it had felt fucking great. But that was neither here nor there right now...because she was home and she was being a good Mom, despite her serious lack of morals and conscience right now.

Moving to lay Ruth down in her bassinet in her room, she would softly brush her fingers through her daughter's hair. It still amazed her how much she looked like Patrick, a little smile curling onto her lips. Finally though, she would pull away and move to double check the locks on the window, making sure nothing could get in. She wasn't going to risk losing that baby....no matter what she had to do.

Then it was down the stairs, into the kitchen and grabbing a bottle of wine that she had picked up on her way home. Kazumi might not have been much a drinker, but Nyx was and she planned to live it up while there was nothing but silence in her mind. She knew Kaz was still in there somewhere, but she had given up. Her time was over, it was now Nyx's turn to have a little fun with this life they shared. An idle thought given to if her little blond friend was going to show like she had said she would....grinning at the through before taking a sip of her wine and leaning into the kitchen counter...allowing her mind to wander slightly.

[taylore]

Taylor and her brother had taken off from school shortly after Kazumi had left them. The blond girl had wanted to get her scouting for Patrick done as soon as possible. She had exhausted her brother's resources only to find that none of them knew anything. Though they all promised to keep an eye out. Luke... had to take on another job, due to all Taylor's questions. He asked if Taylor could help him this time, but... the things they had planned for her... well both Luke and Taylor decided it was best she just go home. It was late now and Taylor didn't feel like going back home. Luke wasn't there for her and you could hardly call a cardboard box home. Besides... on nights like these well... it probably wasn't safe for her to sleep at home anyway.

Taylor would wander the streets of the city for a time before stuffing her hands in her hoodie pocket. She blinked feeling paper in there and pulled it out. Standing under a street light she looked down at the paper and read Kazumi's handwriting. It was her friend's address. Kazumi had given it to her just in case Taylor heard anything. The blond girl's heart sank. She hadn't gotten any information. She felt just horrible. Still, she needed to tell Kazumi, or rather Nyx as she was going by now, that she had tried. The name change would still be something Taylor would have to get used to. With a sigh, our blond homeless girl set off to find her friend's house. She had no idea that the person there now was no longer the girl she had met before.

Standing in front of Kazumi's house, Taylor thought for a moment. She chewed her lip and remembered that Kazumi had a baby girl. If she rang the bell or knocked... well chances of the baby waking up were high. So Taylor would take out her cellphone and quickly text Nyx that she was standing outside the door. Her hood was pulled up over her face, shielding those grey blue eyes from the world. She didn't know if Nyx was up so she would wait till the door opened. If it never did... then Taylor would most likely wander off to go and sleep in the park. She would have to tell her friend another time about her failure.

[Kazumi O'Connor]

Nyx was about halfway through her second glass of wine when she heard her phone go off. By this time she had migrated into the living room and was seated on the couch staring at the television which was still not plugged in. Oh, she had tried, just as Kazumi had, but she had failed just the same. She didn't like the pictures flashing in front of her eyes, it brought back too many memories of that hole she had been stuffed into.

A little shudder running down her spine as she reached for her phone, only to see that it was a text from Taylor. Her brow arching slightly at why she would text if she was standing outside, yet it wasn't hard to figure out. She didn't want to risk waking the baby, and to be honest Nyx could almost appreciate that.....almost. As it stood she would just grin, her mind racing over what she could do with her new found friend.

Standing up, she would tug on her little black boxers she wore to make sure that they were in their proper place, having ridden up on her as just a bit. Next, hands smoothed over that pink tank top she wore as she began to move toward the door. Truth was, it was a small house, but Kazumi had fixed it up really nice for her husband. Shame he wasn't around to enjoy it, though again all she felt toward that matter was irritation at losing what was her's. Nothing more.

Reaching the door, she would flip open the control panel and key in her access code, her hand pulling back to run through her somewhat disheveled, dark locks of hair...Allowing them to fall around her face and shoulders...giving her a somewhat messy, yet very sexy look. Shame? She had none.

No, she just wanted to have a bit of fun and since her brother had left her to do such on her own, she would have to create fun when and where she could. So, with that done, she would reach down and pull open the door, leaning into it slightly as Taylor came into view, those dark eyes looking at her as a little grin curled upon her lips. "I wasn't sure you were really going to come by..." Speaking up in that thick Italian accent, almost purring the words forth before nodding toward the inside of the house and stepping back to make room for the other girl to come in.

"You want to come in?" A hint of something in her voice, almost like she was wanting her to, but didn't really want to say it. Nyx being a lot smoother at the whole, tease thing than Kazumi ever was.

[taylore]

Taylor would stand waiting and once that door opened, her eyes settled upon the girl she called her friend. Though she would probably never be aware that Kazumi was no longer there. Nyx stood before her, black boxers, pink tank top, and disheveled looking hair. Taylor couldn't help but look. Her grey blue eyes slowly sweeping over the girl before Tay reminded herself that she was looking at her friend.

"Well, I wasn't sure either..."

Taylor said rather honestly as she nodded her head to the girl's words about coming in. She thought she heard a subtle hint in the voice, asking her to stay. It was probably because her friend needed someone. Taylor could understand the lonely feeling and she didn't doubt that would be something that Kaz would be feeling right now. Taylor would step into the house and push back the hood that covered her face. It would fall down onto her shoulders revealing those messing blond locks of hers. Looking about the house she smiled and would turn to Nyx.

"Your home is very pretty... I'm not... I'm not disturbing anything am I?"

Taylor asked a little worried she might have disrupted her friend's grieving process. Tay's hands would come up in front of her and she would look down at them as she now fumbled with her fingers a bit.

"I uh... I wanted to thank you, for earlier. The healing thing. It made the rounds I had to do with Luke much easier."

Now came the hard part. Telling her friend she had no good news. Taylor would bite into her bottom lip, still keeping her grey blue eyes on her hands. She couldn't even look her friend in the eyes. She felt just terrible about all this.

"I... I asked everyone we knew... No one... No one heard anything Ka- I mean Nyx. They all said they would keep their ears to the ground though. Promised they would let me know the moment they got any information."

She said finally looking up hoping that might redeem her failure at turning up anything. It was there too, written all over her face. The guilt she had for not protecting Patrick, the worry for her friend's well being, and the guilt she felt for not being able to provide her friend with answers. Taylor was so easy to read, at least if you were her friend. As far as our little blond knew... Kazumi or at least who she thought was Kazumi, still was her friend.

[Kazumi O'Connor]

As she came in Nyx would nudge the door with her foot, closing the door and reaching out to hit the button to secure the locks back into place. The whole while her eyes traveling over that blond figure rather amused with her.....for now. See, this is where Nyx differed so greatly from Kazumi....She didn't see anyone as actual "people" but instead as pawns in the great chess game of life. She didn't take anything too seriously because she had been through some of the worst shit a person could go through, taking shit seriously would just prove to limit the amount of fun she could have in her life before she died again.

She also didn't really give a shit about what another person felt, if she hurt their feelings or if she angered them. What was the point? What good came from caring about that when two weeks from now the pieces would be moved and the game would have shifted? All caring did was breed emotional attachment, and emotional attachment bred pain when said person ended up leaving.

Case in point....Patrick.

"Thank you...And no you are not disturbing. Ruth is in bed and I was just having a glass of wine." A nice enough little smile given as she would saunter her way toward the living room, glancing back over her shoulder as she leaned down and grabbed up her glass of wine. "Would you like some? I mean, its nothing too fancy, just some Italian stuff that my Mother collects." She shrugged, taking a sip of her own.

A small wave of her hand at the thanks, knowing it had been a huge favor and not really needing anyone to tell her that. She had been generous, or Kazumi had, but even Nyx saw the benefits of such....to a point. Just so long as the girl realized it had been a big deal. All that mattered. "No big deal. Really. I was happy to help." Smiling a bit more now.

Though when the conversation turned to the whole "Patrick" situation, her smile fell and a look of....concern...came across her eyes. It wasn't that she didn't care, she just didn't well.....care..as much as she should. Still, she acted as though she did, nodding slowly in understanding and ducking her head....Hell, she even put on a few tears and a little sniffle to try and sell the act. "I guess I sort of figured nobody would know much. I mean, my Mother hasn't found out anything and she has a lot of connections." Sighing softly as she whimpered just a bit.

[taylore]

Taylor would shake her head no, those blond locks shifting and shaking as she did. It was in reply to being asked if she wanted some wine.

"No thank you."

Her father drank, quite a lot and the alcohol on his breath was enough to make her sick of it for the rest of her life. Taylor had no problems with others drinking it, she just couldn't bring her self to drink it. The scent... when it got too close to her nose... brought back so many memories. She shivered at the thought, as if she were cold. She would look back at Nyx and watch how casually she moved. Tay wasn't your brightest bulb but she did notice that Nyx didn't seem as upset as Kazumi was earlier today. The friend she had, sobbing, breaking down, and it all happened right into Tay's hoodie. She had done the best she could to comfort the girl but felt as though she had been more of a problem. She would nod softly though as the girl told her it was no big deal and that she was happy to help.

Taylor slowly followed her friend. Her hands still tweaking and playing with each other in nervous sorrow. She watched her friend and noticed how... although Nyx was a good actress... the act didn't quite look like it had before. Taylor assumed though... that this was how Kazumi grieved. Perhaps she had enough crying for today. Taylor certainly had days like that when she was trapped in a house with her father. And even though the tears and sniffling were fake, the head hung in sorrow and Taylor found her self moving to her friend to wrap her arms around her and comfort her the best way she could.

"I really am sorry Nyx. I tried."

She was oh so sincere. Taylor couldn't lie to her friend, not now, probably never. Her soft voice left her lips, never raising above the usual hushed tone she always carried. Taylor was such a quiet girl.

"I... I didn't only come by to tell you nothing but bad news though..."

She started gently rubbing her friends back to add to the comfort her arms supplied.

"I thought... you probably shouldn't be alone right now. So... I came by to make sure you were doing alright."

Taylor was sweet, to Luke... to Kazumi. Everyone else she acted rather indifferent of. She was loyal to a fault and it was only made worse when the person she was loyal to was someone she was crushing on. Still, Taylor knew Kazumi belonged to Patrick and would push what ever feelings she had for the girl down. It wouldn't be right for her to try anything on Nyx, even if she wasn't really Kazumi right now.

[Kazumi O'Connor]

Nyx knew she wasn't as good at this whole grief thing as Kazumi was, but then again she didn't really have to be. A little sigh escaping her as she felt Taylor's arms wrap about her, to comfort her no doubt, allowing herself to curl into her just a bit, softly burying her face into the girl's neck. "I...I know that I should be more upset...But honestly...I am just so tired of crying.." A little nod, which given her closeness to the girl resulted in her instead nuzzling into the side of Taylor's neck rather gently and delicately.

Slowly, her hands would move to rest against the girl's side, just to hold onto her....for comfort of course. A little whimper given and even a small sniffle as tears built within her eyes. "Th..Thank you so much for coming by though. I have just been....so so lonely and miserable without him.." Making sure to purr the word lonely against the other girl's flesh, her warm breath dancing across such. She was not being forward enough that it would be clear that she was flirting with the other girl, it all just seemed rather accidental.

However as she felt Taylor's hand on her back, she would shiver very noticeably and press into the girl a bit more. Her chest pressing into Tay's and a little, soft, barely audible gasp given. Now that was intentional and obvious...letting it known just how surprisingly good it felt to press into her, to feel her there against Nyx's own body. "It is...so nice to have a friend....I have never, had one before...not really.." And that was the truth. Aside from guys wanting to fuck her and girl who hated her, she had no friends. So it was kind of nice, though Nyx was far more interested in how she could play this little game.

Nuzzling into her neck, this time more fully and intentionally, she would release a shaky breath against that delicate flesh, drawing in a rather deep whiff of the other girl's scent and shivering that much more. she had to admit, she liked it, but she wasn't about to just...flat out admit she was hitting on her. No, she wanted to drag this out and see if she could get hit on in return. If not, well then she would be a bit more straight forward with her reply....

[taylore]

"I know the feeling. It's okay..."

Taylor cooed to her friend trying to help sooth her. The blond girl blinked feeling, or at least thinking she felt her friend nuzzle against her neck. To be honest, Tay thought it was her own wishful thinking. She pushed those thoughts away. Tay, really? Her boyfriend is kidnapped because you were weak and here you are thinking about her nuzzling you?! What is wrong with you?! Her mind practically yelled at her for this. Taylor noticed the hands that rested on her sides. Perhaps...No! She needs comfort. Behave your self. Be a true friend Taylor! Her mind would berate her and then that oh so lovely purr of the word lonely touched her ears.

"Y-yea... me neither."

Tay said softly. She didn't know why she was so nervous. Her friend needed her and here she was thinking things she shouldn't and making her self uncomfortable. Then... it happened. The girl shivered, pushed her self against Taylor and that gasp. If Taylor didn't know better... she would assume her friend was looking for a different type of comfort. One Tay wouldn't mind providing but still... Our young blond girl had started to change her mind about coming to see her friend. She thought the girl needed someone to hold her hand, but the subtle things... NO STOP THINKING LIKE THAT! Her mind yelled at her once again. She would gently lean back, away from Nyx and smile at her friend.

"Here... you should sit down. You need to rest."

Though Taylor tried to deny her thoughts. Though she tried to deny her urge to 'comfort' Nyx, it wouldn't work. Tay would settle her hand upon the small of her friend's back rather gently to help guide her to the couch. Though her other arm wrapped around Kazumi's body, just under her bust to help support her. There were other reasons of course. Taylor's hands rather gently rubbed the spots they touched. Even her arm delicately rubbed against her friend's form. Though she had tried her best to keep her mind pure about her intentions, perhaps... they weren't so pure after all.

[Kazumi O'Connor]

Nyx wasn't stupid, even if she sometimes seemed that way. She heard the slight alteration in the other girl's voice, and she felt the oh so subtle changes in the way her body felt against her own. It was nice, she had to admit that, and so much fun. Now, keep in mind, that just because she had planned on this being a game, it didn't mean that she didn't want to enjoy it or savor what little "affection" she could manage from the other girl. Quite the opposite really.

In fact, once she was sure that she had put enough curiosity into the other girl's mind, to sort of guide her hand into hitting on Nyx herself....well then, Nyx just sort of decided to sit back and enjoy the ride. A little nod given to the suggestion of sitting down, looking up at the blond as she pulled back and softly biting her lower lip, making sure to avoid her fangs....for now. She was trying to play off that she hadn't just enjoyed that, and she was failing miserably. But that was sort of the point. "Ye..Yeah I should."

A little sigh, feeling that hand on her back urging her back toward the couch, she would shiver a bit more upon the other arm wrapping about her. Then, as those hands softly rubbed against her, another, barely audible gasp would be released, her body seeming to melt just a little more into Taylor's own a she would shift back toward the couch, allowing the girl to "help" her to it.

Then, slowly she would pull away from those touches to take a seat, her hand reaching out as she did so to pull her "friend" down onto the couch with her, to her right. Once the girl had taken a seat, Nyx would simply shift around so that she could easily enough curl into the other girl's side, resting her head against Taylor's shoulder and speaking up in that soft, hushed little purr once more. "I am so glad that you are here Taylor." Her accent a bit heavier now as she continued to coo and purr those words, making sure that the name rolled off her tongue in a somewhat slow, sultry manner. Little fingers softly lacing with Taylor's, holding her hand gently as her thumb made small circles along her flesh....

[taylore]

Blond locks fell over her shoulders as she felt her friend shiver and practically melt into her arms. For a moment... the grey blue orbs were open in shock. She tried to play it off like she hadn't noticed and cleared her throat trying to focus. Help your FRIEND to the couch Tay. That is what a good FRIEND would do. She thought to her self. Once Nyx had sat down, Taylor would join her and sit on her right side. It didn't take long before she felt Nyx leaning against her. The accent, the purred words. They weren't helping Taylor keep her mind off of other thoughts.

"Y-yea? Glad that I could make you feel better Nyx."

Taylor said as she felt her fingers lacing with her friends. The small circles her friend drew against her pale flesh ever so lightly made our blond girl blink. She stared down at their entwined hands. Well... you know... no one has heard anything on Patrick. Nyx... Nyx needs someone to look out for her. She was just trying to rationalize it now. One arm would drape over her friend, finger tips gently brushing over Nyx's shoulder, moving further down to gently graze over the side of her friend's chest. Finally her hand rested gently just above Nyx's elbow. Comfort comes in many ways Tay. Some people feel better after... No. No I can't do that to her. It isn't right.

Once again our little blond girl was at war with her self. She would bite her bottom lip. Her hand began to move up and down her friend's arm. There they sat, Tay trying so hard to fight her feelings. She couldn't help but wonder... if perhaps Nyx wanted this...

[Kazumi O'Connor]

It would be very hard to fully explain what was going on inside the little brunettes head as she curled up against her "friend". Did she need comfort? On some level she did. Did she need affection? Always. Did she see anything wrong with what she was doing? Nope. But then that was the one fundamentally flawed thing about Nyx in comparison to her counterpart...hell, compared to most of society really. She had no real understanding or care for what was right or wrong. Oh sure, she knew what other people thought to be right and wrong, and somewhere, deep down inside herself, she understood...But Nyx was Kazumi's version of an off switch.

Where as most psychopaths never were able to feel compassion, understanding, values of right and wrong, Kazumi was more than capable. She just had the ability to turn it off, like now. Why would a person choose to do such things you might ask? Well, the reasoning is quite simple....If she turned off all those things...then she didn't have to hurt anymore, and after the kind of hurt she had been suffering after losing her husband...well it was just all to easy to give up and give in. After all, he had been the single, solitary reason she fought so hard to keep from becoming lost in herself....now, without him, there was nothing pushing her to fight..Not when she knew that no matter her current state of mind, she would protect and care for Ruth.

That being said, she would shiver softly as she felt those fingers starting to trace along her shoulder, a small, somewhat contented sound escaping her as she shifted to press into Taylor's side just a bit more. All the while, her thumb continuing to trace along the back of the blond's hand which she still held onto. Yet those fingers would not stop on her shoulder, instead moving down to brush against the side of her chest, drawing a soft, somewhat shy little gasp from her lips. "Yes..you do...Very much so." Still speaking in a low voice, her words just a bit shaky.

Now at this point it was hard for Nyx herself to tell if she was just continuing to put on the little act, or if she was instead starting to just sit back and enjoy. Whatever the case though, it all seemed to be having its desired effect, those fingers now brushing along her arm, compelling her to softly shift up against Taylor. Her head tilting just a bit, she would this time deliberately nuzzle into the other girl's neck...a soft, hushed little sigh exhaled against her flesh as she closed her eyes and simply savored the closeness and the touch.

Nyx craved affection. It was like a drug to her, to be honest. Something brought about from her time both as a child and as a prisoner to Earth and that dungeon of sorts. She knew she didn't need affection to prove she was loved....but her mind had her crave it just the same. "Its been so lonely here...nobody to talk to...nobody to hold me..." Every word purred just as smoothly as the last, though upon finishing her sentence they would drop to a much softer whisper, just below the blond's ear. "..nobody to touch me..."

Slowly, with most of her weight now on her hip and sitting with her legs curled up onto the couch, she found herself shifting so that one shoulder would press into the back of the couch and she would be semi facing Taylor. All this, so that she could shift her right leg, which rested atop the other one in her current position, her knee subtly brushing against the other girl's thigh as Nyx snuggled into her a bit more, allowing Taylor's arm to snake around her more securely if she so decided to do so.

Finally, to top it all off and to see if she could really push that final button that would get the other girl to make the move on her, she would speak up timidly against the other girl's neck, lips brushing her flesh with every word she issued. "Can you please make it better Taylor? Can you please help me?" Not saying anything flat out as far as what she was talking about, but knowing the implications were there just the same. Now it was just a matter of waiting to see if she had pushed enough to get a response, or if she had to keep pushing here and there to get what she wanted. What that part of her that craved affection needed.

[taylore]

Taylor was failing terribly at being a friend. Her mind had now given up all hope of talking her self out of it. Instead it now tried to rationalize it. Patrick's gone. He probably isn't coming back. Nyx needs someone now. Someone she can count on. Someone to help her with Ruth... Still it had trouble trying to rationalize the more... perverse thoughts Taylor was having. Nyx was good at doing what she had to, to get what she wanted and Taylor was the best and being fooled. That oh so soft whispered purr near Taylor's ear sent shivers up the blond girl's back. She no longer decided to rationalize these feelings. Though part of her did have trouble fathoming that this was the same girl she talked to earlier, Taylor paid not mind to it.

The blond noticed how Nyx moved closer, turned slightly so she almost was facing Taylor. Those grey blue orbs running over the form of the girl she held close. Taylor's heart thumped heavily in her chest as she heard the girl ask her to help, make it better. Taylor would bite into her lip. Her mind begged her to think this through but Tay had finished thinking. She was never good at it anyway. She was good at other things though and... if she could help Nyx forget about her pain... for only a little while... it was worth it. She wouldn't say anything at all in response. Her arm would withdraw from around the dark haired girl beside her and her index finger would gently slip under Nyx's chin to lift her head. Taylor would lean towards her and soon she felt Nyx's lips against her own.

Sure she would help her friend, in as many ways as she could. Taylor's tongue would slip past her own lips to gently run over Nyx's bottom lip. The blond wasted no movement. The hand that rested under Nyx's chin would move slowly, down the girl's neck, finger tips trailed down further over the collar bone and continued downward tracing the other girl's form with her finger tips.

[Kazumi O'Connor]

She could almost feel the indecision in the air, and yet she didn't really let up, nor did she let it discourage her. She had always been rather curious to see if she would enjoy this as much as she did the act of kissing a man or being with a man, and so far, based on those touches and what not, she would have to say she did. Perhaps she just grew up around such relationships for so long that at this point they seemed more natural than the whole girlfriend/boyfriend thing.

Whatever.

She wasn't really thinking at the moment, at least not some in depth, self analyzing, psycho mumbo jumbo. Nope, she was thinking about one thing and one thing only. How could she win this game....Though it would seem that she didn't have to do anything, as she felt that finger come up beneath her chin, tipping her head upwards so that those big, bright eyes fell upon Taylor's grey ones.

Softly she bit her lower lip, knowing that she wanted this but at the same time a little unsure as to if she should. She did care for Patrick, but Nyx did not 'love' him like Kazumi did. Kazumi would rather die than do this...Nyx? Noooot so much. Though, as soon as Taylor began to lean in, all thoughts seemed to cease all together.

Closing her eyes, she felt those soft lips press against her own, drawing forth a soft gasp from her as she tilted her head just a tiny bit. Savoring the feel of it, she could not help but gasp as she felt that warm, moist tongue brush against her lower lip. Her own lips parting now, tongue slowly slipping forth to meet that of the other girl as she softly shifted her body in a bit closer now.

As the kiss began to deepen, one small hand would come forth and slowly press against Taylor's stomach before smoothly and gently, sliding across such and around to her side, fingers curling just slightly to grip her side and pull her into Nyx just a bit more. Already, her mind was working on the more feral aspects of her personality, though she kept them at bay, for now.

[taylore]

Doubts and other things had left Taylor's mind. She wasn't even thinking right now. It was almost as if her brain shut off and she was running on auto pilot. She felt Nyx pull her closer and Taylor would lean more into the kiss. Taylor would free the hand she had entangled with Nyx and with both her hands free she would gently move her hands over Nyx's body. Her finger tips lightly traced over Nyx's chest, down over her stomach and would gently rub at the girl's thighs. There was a slight knot in Taylor's stomach and she felt that familiar twinge of guilt filled pain in her gut. She pulled from the kiss.

"Are... you sure this is okay?"

Her hands still rested on Nyx's thighs. Taylor's chest rose softly as she gathered the breath she had held while kissing. That guilt she was feeling needed to be relieved. Even if she wasn't thinking while doing this... her body still felt like this was wrong in some way. So she posed this question to Nyx. What ever her friend said would determine if this continued. It couldn't fully resolve Taylor's guilt, Tay would have to resolve that one by herself.

"I don't know how far you are willing to go and I... I don't want to push you..."

[Kazumi O'Connor]

She would issue a small whimper as she felt her pulling back. She was thinking, sort of, and what she was thinking was that she didn't want to just....stop. It had been awhile since Pat had disappeared, and from what she could gather, her Mother couldn't find a single shred of information on him anywhere. That just led her to believe that he was gone, for good, and that he wasn't coming back. Add to that the fact that Nyx herself was not real big on the whole "commitment" thing and yeah...she would look at Taylor as she pulled back, biting her lower lip once again and careful of her fangs...Listening to her question and giving it a moment to process through her mind before nodding softly. "I..I just...." She didn't want to sound too eager, not when she was supposed to be in pain or mourning or whatever...so she hesitated. "I just...well I really like you...and.."

She paused again, even managing to blush a bit. Not hard given she had never been with a girl before...and well, yeah...it was new for her. Still she would allow her small hand to come and rest atop Taylor's which was on her thigh, squeezing it slightly. "I...I want to..." Nodding and inching just a bit closer. Yeah, Nyx was the "last" person that could really be forced into anything....at least not like this. She was waaay too aware of what she was doing right now. She also knew that pretty much everyone on the planet would think it was wrong...but yeah, Nyx didn't give a shit. "D..Do you want to?" Asking almost hesitantly and shyly...not sure if the girl was perhaps having second thoughts about "her" or not.